Yes, I had questions...not all my questions would be answered. Proverbs 3:5 says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.." I knew I could not see the future, and that I may not want to see it anyhow. Often when I was able to go home and rest while my husband or daughter would stay with Rhea at IU Cancer center, I would lay there awake, my eyes full of tears, crying out to God, asking Him why, what was the purpose, why so young...God would only reveal, that I must trust Him for what the future holds for Rhea...that God has a bigger and better plan for her life. I was scared...I didn't want to loose one of my precious daughters...I had to let go. I asked God to help me release her to Him..I told God I would trust Him...He was my helper..He was The Healer, He was and is my Hope. I remember the day after Rhea was diagnosed, Rhea was in tears, she said with great faith, God has a plan for her, she didn't know what it was, but she knew He had a plan. I told her that God must have seen her as a willing vessel, one He could use for His glory.
Hard days ahead at home....
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